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Saturday, 13 June 2009

Tak Ada Yang Abadi (Nothing that is Forever)

You may have realised that I've changed my imeem song on this blog. It's from the latest track by PeterPan (An indonesian band) with the title "Tak Ada Yang Abadi" (Translation: Nothing that is Forever; better translated as Nothing lasts Forever).

I downloaded this song from a CD album that ironically "E" left in my car system. I am not usually the kind of guy who listens to malay songs, not that I have anything against them, it's just not the norm for me. But when I do, I only play songs that I am familiar with, and skip the rest. When I was offshore, I downloaded the album in my iPod and set the iPod on shuffle and just listen to whatever the iPod decided to play. That is when I heard this song for the first time.

This will make me sound like a sissy, but I cried my eyes out, listening to this track. I cried because this song speaks the honest truth that people including myself won't admit to. It speaks the truth. No matter what. Yeah, it is true that some might find it a pessimistic. But it's the whole truth and nothing but the truth. Nothing in life lasts. Nothing lasts forever. I felt the song. I felt and I know what it was all about. I makes me look back at my life, and the things that have ended, mostly my failed relationships. The people I love. My relationship with my family. And many things I haven't reconciled with or even won't be able to reconcile. I wish I can tell you the truth about what goes wrong with my heart. I don't even know what can fix my broken heart. It's sad and depressing, but I am hopeful. Or at least, I like to think that I am.

Tak kan selamanya tangan ku mendekap mu
It won't be forever this hands could hold you in my arms
Tak kan selamanya raga ini menjaga mu
It won't be forever this heart could care for you
Seperti alunan detap jatung ku
Just like heartbeat of my heart
Tak bertahan menahan waktu
It won't stand in the hands of time
Dan semua keindahan yang memudar
And all of beauty that fades
Atau cinta yang t'lah hilang
Or the love that is lost

Tak Ada Yang Abadi
Nothing lasts Forever
Tak Ada Yang Abadi
Nothing lasts Forever
Tak Ada Yang Abadi
Nothing lasts Forever
Tak Ada Yang Abadi
Nothing lasts Forever

Oh... Biarkan aku bernafas sejenak
Oh... Please let me breath for a while
Sebelum hilang...
Before it's gone..

Tak kan selamanya tangan ku mendekap mu
It won't be forever this hands could hold you in my arms
Tak kan selamanya raga ini menjaga mu
It won't be forever this heart could care for you
Jiwa yang lama segera pergi
Old hearts gone out quickly
Bersiaplah para pengganti oh..
Be ready for replacements oh...

Tak Ada Yang Abadi
Nothing lasts Forever
Tak Ada Yang Abadi
Nothing lasts Forever
Tak Ada Yang Abadi
Nothing lasts Forever
Tak Ada Yang Abadi
Nothing lasts Forever

Sure after I've translated this song, it does sound hopeless and it makes you feel alone. But that's the truth behind it. We are alone. In the end. And in the end, there's just us. You. Me. By ourselves. People leave us. People change. People abandoned us. People just leave. In the end. So nothing, nothing lasts. I want to believe this song. But believing the truth is painful. And I know I must accept the inevitable. I will be alone. In the end.

But all of us, must live. Live a life to the fullest and make full use of it. Enjoy it. But in the end, is it all worth it? The answer's relative. You might say from one spectrum to the other... in a split second depending what situation you are in. But we all try. We try. I try. We must try. We hope. I hope. I try to hope for the better. I must. It's all about the journey right? But what if that we know what is in store for us at the end of the journey? Does that make the journey worth it?

A year ago, I was a happy man for two years. Towards the end, I fell badly. I try to get up, only to get knocked down by others, and by myself. And now. I feel lonely. I feel abandoned. I know I have you (i.e. my readers) but this heart... it's just a very painful place. Very painful. And lonely and hollow. Before all of this happened, I was a man of freedom. Enjoying a carefree life. I stood by my own feet. I was strong. I was tough. Then I let someone into my heart. The like this song goes, nothing lasts forever. The truth is, I want to let someone back in my heart. But I am afraid. I want to be as strong and tough as I was. I need to be. And this song reminds me, it gives me the strength. I need to accept the truth. People will always leave me. In the end. Always. As always.

Pessimistic post. I agree. Depressing. I agree as well. Nevertheless of the truth. Until then. Stand tall. Stand strong. I try.

2 comments:

Mirda Ahmad said...

True.. nothing lasts forever.
Segala yang didunia hanya sementara tetapi akhirat kekal abadi. Tapi hadirnya kita didunia tidak sia-sia... perjalanan kita walaupun singkat, hadapilah ia sebaik mungkin. Teruskan perjuangan kerana cinta sejati tetap ada dan cinta abadi hanya milik Yang Esa.

M.Aiedee Asrul a.k.a Eddie said...

Amacam skrang bro....