Kellaz, A Journal

I started the day quite early, because I promised my boss that I will be early for a site visit to the yard today.   Yard?  You may ask?   Yard is where the heart of our operations is.  I have a new project of my own, given by my boss.  I'm happy.  I'm excited with my new project.  It isn't a project as per se, but it's more or less a project.   Many of the work that was planned but didn't fall through due to many factors will be 'cleaned up' by my team and I.  Me and my boss are working on starting up the team.  There are many things to be do, I suppose, as everything else when starting up, it will be difficult and many things to look into.  I'm happy to do these because I feel like I own something.  I suppose this will prevent me from the lacking and slacking circle. So the visit to the Yard was...  all I can say, hot!  My brains were boiling under my helmet.  The sun was blaring.  I have  a new found respect about the guys working in the Yard . ...

I decided to give the biweekly netball game a miss today.  I decided to drive back home a bit early.  Had to leave office early to pick up my friend's Apple Time Machine to send to the shop for some sort of tweaking.  I was actually contemplating to play or run errands.  I also wanted to buy iKlear from the same shop for my laptop.  So I thought to myself, I might as well... The Mac book black stains easily, after reading one forum to another, all recommended iKlear .  So I bought and...  Pah!  Nothing.  So I decide to use a hand wash as one of the recommendations in the forum.  It worked! (almost).  I also put on the mac crystal cover on to make sure it won't stain again.  My mac book look even more sexy.  Just like the owner - ha-ha! I will play netball this Thursday instead.  There is another game tomorrow.  So perhaps I could join that one.  I'm still new to this netball thingy, was supposed to be just for fun, but now, I wanted to be good at it.  Oh, also, I have al...

Hmmm, I love Sundays , was my first thoughts of the day. Then I open my eyes, and my head was screaming... No it isn't! You fool! It's freaking Monday! And it is freaking 930 AM!! I checked my alarm, yup it's working, both of my phones, yup still working... So why the hell didn't I wake up. I grabbed the towel and rush to the bathroom to shower. And when I got back to my wardrobe... Shit, haven't done laundry, haven't done any ironing. What the hell have you done? You're such a lazy twat. So here I am working in my polo shirt and jeans. I look like shit. On my one hour journey to the office, my boss called, asking where I was. I told him I was on the way to work. His reply was "!!!!!!!!!!!!" Of course, it is my fault. I also missed that I have a course today. Laser 3D scanning training. Shit! To think that this week is going to be great. Well, I may have a shitty start. But I am determined that all will be well, and I will work as hard as I c...

It has been a relaxing Sunday, something I needed.   Tomorrow will be the start of a new week.  I am hopeful that next week will be a great week.  I have an instinct about it.  I have been away from the office for a little bit to settle my house plans.  Not the house plan itself but, the planning side.  I suppose with a little background of Project Engineering and now as a Planning Engineer.  I should be able to handle all of these perfectly. I was hoping to spend my Hari Raya AidilFitri in my new house/home.  But considering all of the delays, I don't think I can.  I can try, of course, but I wouldn't want to rush the contractors to build my house and by that way, mistakes would be prone.  So I told them to just take their time to build my house properly. It is quite an achievement that I am able to build my house at my age.  I'm sort of proud of myself, but unfortunately it is sad that I don't have anyone to share my joy.  No, I'm not talking about a wife.  I'...

My meeting this afternoon went well.  Without disclosing too much about my financial details, what happened was, I had to start from scratch, financially.  Not that I have a financial problems, but some convoluted problems within the financial institute I am dealing with, means, I might have to start all over again.  Thank god, all the technical bits of the construction is almost done.  So it is all about sorting out my financial bits and pieces. We will continue the meeting tomorrow.  Hopefully I will get everything sorted out.  I have one month to solve this problem.  So there is some rush and urgency, but nothing that serious.  Speaking about financial issues, I am having some sort of financial reorganisation.  After today's meeting, we also talked about insurance, and I was introduced to an agent, the insurance is with regards to insure the house, which is mandatory.  I was thinking if I should take up life insurance as well, and maybe perhaps a retirement fund for me.  Who kno...

Yesterday, after work, I made a detour to JPMC gym before heading home. When I arrived there, I felt a little embarrassed and intimidated to even exit my car. I guess everybody would have those kind of feeling when venturing in a new place or crowd. I finally took the courage to get out of the car, after calling my  baby, baby just told me to just go for it, since I am there already. So I thought, yeah, I'm here and might as well... So as I entered the JPMC gym, I was 'escorted' by three buffed up men. I assume they were going to the gym to work out. But since I was exactly behind them. I felt like being escorted. They were walking a little slow and.... oh I'm digressing... So anyway, again, I arrived welcomed by a cute Lil' chic, and only said "Yes? Keys?" I told them that I'd like to join and she raised an eyebrow, and started to unfold the leaflet by the counter, I asked her if I could wonder around, and she told me that she'll gave me a tour...

I spent three hours per day, five days per week on the road. So that is 15 hours per week. It is exhausting. Me and a friend recently talked about one day that Brunei will have a railroad network. We both think it is an excellent idea. Bruneians are sad to say, spoiled. Spoiled citizen of the world. Everybody is so used to the idea of living of luxury as the norm and anything lower or common than that is considered of an embarrassment to themselves. Why would I say such a thing? Okay, my fault here, is probably generalising everybody. But this is not the case, I'm saying this generally, not applicable to some people. So don't come back to me and be defensive about it. Besides the more defensive one gets, only means the deeper the denial. Just because it makes my life easier to commute doesn't necessarily means that it is a good idea. C'mon, open up your mind and think how 'close' we could be. Brunei being already a small country, takes an hour to get...

I think the doctor gave me Bitch Pills yesterday. I am easily annoyed and agitated i.e. bitchy and in return I get nasty to anybody close. Yesterday, I had a late lunch with a friend at KFC Kiulap , there were two girls in uniforms ordering food in front of me, they were talking in a thick-and-out-of-place English accent, and acting so cute about it. At first, I ignored them as I was also thinking about what I want to get. They took their own sweet time, ordering and cancelling over and over again, maybe zinger, maybe not, maybe this, no, I think just chicken, no, maybe not... That went on for about five bleeding minutes! Then when the guy who took their order finally got the total, the 'fat ugly' girl (as I call her - FYI, I was on the pills) told her in her thick accent, "Oh, by the way, separate bills please!" Oh for goodness sake! If you wanted separate bills, you should not butt in when her other friend is ordering! And what is even more annoying, he...

Okay, I'm going to rant about work now.  It may sound like I'm whining and procrastinate myself.  I admit I am a slacker at work.  I'm not denying that, nor would I defend myself from that fact.   On Friday, just as I was about to leave the office.  I was confronted about this fact from my boss.  And at the end of that meeting, I felt that I have no self pride, no self preservation, no hope, in myself, I felt let down, but I took the criticism positively.  He apologised if he had offended me.  So what was it all about?  Actually he confronted me about my attitude at work recently, that I have been slacking off and not helping out the team.  And he told me about my work ethics when I was offshore and in the office.  The word was everyone was complaining that I am not pulling my weight.  It did cross my mind, "what weight?  I don't have any weight to pull".  He told me that when I was offshore I got 'complaints'.  He didn't tell me who but I was told...

I forgot to mention today, that yesterday, since I was not feeling well, I decided to go for a massage at the popular Zen Spa at Kiulap.  It was a nice place.  It was my second time going to the spa, the first time was a treat from my friend after running the half marathon.  Actually it was a bad idea of having a massage after strenuous exercise.  But it felt good nevertheless. It was really painful, and the masseuse was telling me that I was really tense.  Then I thought to myself, when was the last time I had a massage. It was more than a year ago!  And the most painful and tense part of my body was my shoulder and my right leg.  So I wonder why those part of my body.  Then it struck me.  It was all the driving that I have been doing for the past few months.  Commuting up and down from work and home really took a toll on my body.  And the masseuse agreed that I, at least come twice every month.  So I think I will make this my monthly to do list...  To have a massage twice a month. ...

Yesterday, as I was under the weather plus a little bad weather then into worst weather as my grammar was under scrutiny under my already turbulent weather. Things were just getting a little dimmer to just a mere bleak. In short, things are not well, I am not well and things aren't getting any better. My tonsil is still swollen (till now) with the occasional headache. It feels persistent. It just won't go away. I hate this. Today in the office, I am very agitated. A few people have already experience my wrath. I'm not in a great mood. I just want to be left alone. I want to be invincible. Just don't talk to me. But of course, work does not work that way, and everybody is talking supremely loud today, perhaps it is Friday, and everybody is in a cheery mood and I am not. I came late today to work, because earlier this morning, I have a headache, so I gave myself some time to lay my head for a little bit. And when I woke up, my headache was quite bearable, and...

With my new laptop, I managed to get online for a while.  I am under bad weather right now, I am feeling not well,  my tonsils is swollen, my fever just passed, and I'm still not in good shape.  So this won't be much of a long post.  My housemate has already installed espeed at home, so, I'm posting this in the living room.  Anyway, my stomach isn't feeling good.  I better go now.  I hate feeling under the weather.  I hate this, I hate being sick!

Yes, a second post of the day, and yes, that means I am bored. Good news first, the computer shop called me today and told me my laptop is here! But she mention that they ran out of the 2GB RAM, and my new laptop I have upgraded to 4GB RAM... but all she has at the moment is the extra 1GB. So I'd have to settle with 3GB RAM for now. And yesterday, when I got back home, my housemates told me that espeed is already installed but, but, but not such a big surprise, that espeed is was down. My friend told me Telbru did post an apology article in the newspaper for the espeed downtime, but no-what-so-ever explanation why it was down. To me it feels like, some who did something wrong and apologised, then just walk the other way, laughing.... All that hard earn cash... They just took it... and all we get is downtime, inconvenience and a simple sorry. Great! Fantastic! (Disclaimer: I didn't read the article, thus if my friend lied, I am lying to you too!) Kellaz, stop digressing...

My new toy arrived yesterday. I brought a new mobile ( again! ). I have ordered my new mobile phone online on Saturday. And on Monday, it was ready for pick up. Right now, I'm a little sleepy and a little tired. Just before picking up my new toy, I finally got to play my first game of netball after being offshore. It was great. No, it was awesome. I played quite well. I think except that I don't know if it was my shoe or was the court surface, I kept on 'dragging' i.e. slipping which is a fault. But it was great. But right now I'm paying for it. My body is a little stiff this morning. So after that game, I changed clothes in the car and drove straight to the shop to pick my new mobile. So what is my mobile? It is an LG KU990 Viewty. Indeed it is such a beauty by it's standard. It's sexy and sleek, exactly like me! LOL - I mean, just like I imagined it to be. It's solid and looks good. I love it. Although I just realised a few setbacks, I couldn't ge...

Managed to badly edit the pictures from my camera to get this panoramic view when I was offshore.. It was serene and peaceful, hope u like it.. Adios!

Bad ending to my week. And a bad start to this week. Hopefully it will become much more better as the week goes along. I woke up pretty early today, only to find myself in a traffic jam. I try not to stress out commuting up and down to work, but I find it ridiculously ignorant and stupid for causing a traffic jam, when there is an accident at the side of the road, I repeat, SIDE OF THE ROAD. So anyway, I don't want to stress myself about it. So I'm just gonna hope that you have a great start. And wish me luck. Will update you with more stuffs and going ons later. Adios.

I am at work. On Sunday. Great! Sigh! I was woken up by my boss's text message, giving me the guilty trip. He expects me to work throughout the weekend. Which is quite difficult for me. I commute everyday, now he wants to include the weekend. I know some people do that and I shouldn't be whine about it. But seriously. The bomb was dropped on me on Friday evening. And now I should cancel my plans all throughout the weekend? Whatever! I work to live. Not live to work. If anybody finds that difficult for them. Tough! Yesterday, I woke up quite early, but had to do my laundry. I have clothes that I have not washed for more than 2 weeks. Should I drop that of my plan to do list just because I am needed in the office. I ran out of underwear, so should I start going 'commando' to the office? I have my bedding to send to the laundrette, should I just wait to pile up. Oh how about lunch? Let's not have any. Just drive all the way, on an empty stomach sha...

Was supposed to take my 'unplanned' leave today. But I got a call from my boss that he needs me. So here I am arriving in my flip flops to the office and will be the 2nd last person to leave. My colleague has quite a long time to finish his spreadsheet. Yes, that is what we always do around here endless quantity of spreadsheets, endless quantity of updating and status reporting. It's tiring most of the time. I always joked that our eyes are now seeing squares and rectangle everywhere. So anything nothing much happened here. Till then, you all have a great weekend. I will be at work tomorrow, so won't be having that much fun. Adios Amigos! Ciao!

I'm running out of space. My work emails has gone *KABOOM* on me. Thus I have to separate last years email into a different bloody .pst file. And *tick*tock*tick*tock* am still waiting, thus couldn't leave the office yet. Got freaking netball to play, gagging to play... after being away offshore for a bit... I wanna play... Contemplating? Oh yes... To play netball or not? The clouds are - as my friend put it "look scare" . It's a rolling wave of dark clouds. To leave the PC on or off? Should I just let it run for the night... Hmmm... I'm just ranting okay... I'm bored, my tea's gone cold now, but it tastes great never the less. My "mum" made it for me. (Pause : Woohoo, yes, its done it's transfer... about time... oh but I'm on a roll here...) So anyway, yeah, my pseudo mum made it. Me and the tea ladies, we *click* if you know what I mean... You mess with them, you mess with me! Got a phone call just now from the co...

Last night, unable to sleep, what would one do? Me? I buffed my finger nails! Yes, I was THAT bored! See them gleaming and shining! Please let me know what to do in case that I am having another insomnia night... I'm afraid that I will end up with faggy nails!

Yesterday, I was woken up by a loud closing of the house door, but it wasn't that loud. But somehow I got woken up by it. I remembered hearing a humming sound before that, must be that my housemate was doing vacuuming. It must be the sound of the vacuum machine. I don't know, I was dead yesterday. Totally. Since I came back onshore on Monday, I went to work on Tuesday, but between those days, I didn't sleep. I couldn't sleep. Maybe it was the change of sleeping pattern or my sleep location, or perhaps I am missing the humming sound of a ship. So maybe that was why the sound of my house mate's vacuuming didn't really wake me up. So anyway, yesterday, I was literally dead on my bed. I didn't hear the radio alarm, I didn't hear 5 text message on my phone, I didn't hear my housemate vacuuming, I didn't hear him wake up... No, nothing... A bomb would have exploded next to my ear and I would be still fast asleep, or maybe in that case, HEADLESS! I woke...

This picture was taken when we were on our way to our vessel. In the picture is one of the next engineering generation. He wasn't posing, he didn't realise I was taking his picture. Indeed it came out really good. More pictures to come... Until then Adios Amigos!

When I was about to write this post, I wanted a unique heading, suddenly, Take That's Sure sang in my head hence the title. Just a little fun for my amusement. Yes, again, this will be quite a lengthy post. I have been offshore for almost a week, actually was suppose to return to shore this Saturday, but my boss called me back onshore to do a few follow ups with the problems left on dry land, since almost everyone is now offshore doing pretty much everything under the blue sky. Oh by the way, this is my 101th post of this blog. So how do you think I've done? I know that my journalist dream is still far from my grasp, but to think about it, this blog is much more of my journal rather than being a journalist. Therefore, to this point, my journalist dream will stay as a dream for now. So how about it? My posts so far? Too much info sharing? I know that I have crossed some taboo areas and touched a tad deep emotionally and probably have caused a few stirs here and there, may...