Happy Birthday to Me

Happy Birthday to Me

Warning: This will be a long read. There are a lot of things in my mind which I wanted to express.

Today is my birthday, and now I am three decades old. Time has travelled so fast in front of my eyes. And today, I look back my life and reflect my past. And will also discuss my years to come, insyaallah.

First and Foremost, on the eve of my birthday was the Sixty Second DJ competition which ran align with the best 914. Best 914 is a singing contest where the contestants are selected from a radio show which they called in and sang with a minus one song. And now, yesterday they sang really really well and they sounded like professional singers. It's amazing that they are just singers who just sang along in the radio, for some they have been into a few singing contest.

Then it was our turn. I was the fifth contestant, to go and face the crowd. It was nerve wreaking looking at what looks like about a thousand people watching you. I did what I can, and I did it with my very best effort. I didn't have winning in mind. I was more towards proving and showing what I have to my mentor as I have said on air previously during an interview. My mentor, DJ Aliff has done a lot, and has given all of his efforts to help me and Ralizan a.k.a 'Q'. DJ Zaty also helped us, and giving us a lot of advice and tips to help shake our nerves, and mentoring us together in a group. 'Q' proved his worth by getting the third place. Whilst I got the fifth place. I think five is my lucky number for this year. Fifth contestant and got fifth place. But for me, making Aliff proud, making myself of worth to be a DJ, spending time with them all, is the best birthday gift that I have ever had. Eventhough I am alone in celebrating my birthday, without my family or a loved one. But their presences in my life, I'm not lonely. Thanks everybody for being my new found friends. For many things ahead of all of us…

So how does it feel to be thirty, you might wonder. It feels great, but ancient at the same time. I suppose it is time for me to grow up. I feel no different yesterday, besides age is just a number. What matters is what I feel right now, and how will I continue to enjoy life as I can. One SMS message that I got in my birthday wish, is about reminding me life is too short to be unhappy. Well, l agree, but disagree at the same time. Seriously, life is the longest journey I have ever endure, so there's so many time you can be happy or unhappy. But I agree that life is too precious to spend it unhappily. Another text message that I receive today was when my friend welcomed me to the 30's club. I asked him if there is any free gift from the club. He replied, wisdom and experience. He was dead on right. It's true, I have been through a lot that now, I have enough wisdom and experience to chose how I live my life.

I want to thank you all of the guys who sang and celebrated my birthday right on the stroke of midnight at Wywy Restaurant in Tutong. Thank you for coming and at least I was not feeling lonely on my birthday. Actually birthday isn't a big deal to me. I don't really care if I celebrate it or not. But since I don't want to be alone and lonely at the same time, so I just want to get together for it. It was great. Sometimes I thought if anyone was thinking if I am just looking for attention. But no, I just want to have something rather than nothing. But that is negative thinking which I want to avoid.

Oh yes, by the way, congratulations to Izzat for winning the 60 seconds DJ competition. I told him from the very first day we met that I envy his voice and his script, and I believe that he will win and told him that . Actually, I really wanted him to win. If it was up to me, I'd make him the winner from day one. He only lacks self confidence and usually beats himself up for making mistakes. But he did wonderfully that night. And the look at his face that night after winning, was priceless, he had tears in his eyes, because he was still in disbelieve. I had all my confidence on him. I knew he will win. It was only a matter of time. He just need to believe his instincts and believe in himself. He's a kind and funny even if he didn't meant to be funny. Anyone and everyone should know him, he has a lot going on for him, if he only see it and believe it.

Thanks to 'Q' for keeping me company and giving me confidence and being a friend. Thanks to DJ Zaty for all the advice and helping us achieve our best. Since Izzat was your protégé, congratulations to you too. To DJ Aliff, thanks for everything, sparing your time, your hardwork for us to make the way we are now. It is a priceless gift that you have given and poured to us. In a way, it's is a priceless gift one has given to me for my birthday. Oh also, thanks for the light for my birthday gift, I love it. It's what I need actually… "Save jua duit ku…" Hahaha… Zaty, thanks you too for your gift, it's a candle holder, so everytime I light it, in a way, you shine my heart too. Thanks…

Exiting my twenties, now, despite everything that has happened to me these few weeks, now reflecting back, I can feel good things on my way. This birthday is the best birthday I have ever had. Because, their gift to me is supremely priceless. This past few weeks, I have shared my life with many new people, and with my heart breaking break up and my accident. I have never been down that bad. I didn't show it, to anyone, but it felt really bad. But knowing these special people, who have coloured my life recently, it makes my life much more precious everyday. And in fact to me, these few weeks is the best birthday gift I have ever had. I feel like hugging them all. Now I sound pathetic and desperate. Haha… But seriously, without them realising it, they mean a lot to me. Actually, they saved my life, and my soul, with them knowing.

So what was today's iternary? Well, after my birthday celebration, I went alone to De Fountain, I was still on a high of the night. I knew I couldn't sleep. Then a friend which I have never met, texted me up on MSN and we met up. Yup another new friend gained. We talked and talked until 4am. We then retreated to our own dwellings half past 4. Woke up at 8am and 12pm. Went for a soto lunch with my housemates, at the famous Soto Tini at Jalan Bedil, Lambak. We ran a few errands, stopping at a few places and then came back home. And here I am lying on my stomach on the floor of the living room half typing and watching TV3 on my housemate's new flat screen TV. It's looks amazing…

Here are a few pictures from the rehearsal and the day…

DJ Didie, DJ Rian and Me at the rehearsal

Naza, 60sec DJ Contestant (Mentor DJ Zura), DJ Zaty and Dj Aliff - Post Rehearsal

'Q' wants in the shot… Aliff looking stiff… Zaty always adorable… Grrr… Haha

Izzat 60 sec DJ winner, with his winning smile and me… Yes, I need a shave… (Post Rehearsal)

Me, with Didie stuffing his face, you've gotta love a man with a good appetite and Rian at the end always with a smile…

Izzat, Me and Wafi, a contestant in the Best 914, he sang "Ketahuan – Matta Band"

Izzat in action during the competition… You should have been there, with a great script. A natural comedian!

Izwan a.k.a 'Q' with his third place trophy, our awesome Mentor, Aliff and the last guy on top five winner, me!
(Two of the Top Five Winners)

DJ Rian wants a silly shot. So there we were… Silly as can be! Haha!

You can find more pictures of me and others at Zayn's blog or Zayn's Multiply and Zura's blog.