Kellaz, A Journal

That's how I feel at the moment every morning.  Like a headless chicken. As the platform receive more people, and the light of day indicates work commencing.  I had to wake up early yesterday at 6a.m on a Sunday even!  And the today is no different.  Logistics to care of, people to mobilise. Pretty much boring stuff thus I won't dwell into it here. This is my 200th post in this blog.  So far so good.  Ironically, there isn't much to update you on.  Thus not much to write in the blog.  I've just finished watching Will and Grace final season (Season 8) last night.  I even watched up to the bloopers in the DVD extras, I had to contain myself as my roommate who is also my Shift Supervisor is snoring loudly below me.   (To explain this, I don't sleep on top of him, which is would be awkward, here we have bunk beds, and I got the top bed).  And the more I contain myself from laughing loudly afraid that I'd wake my roommate, my body shook, thus, the bed shook, and th...

Yesterday, Friday, my contractors and I went to the outstation platform, one of the operators joined us as well as per procedure, and I got to know him quite well.  We shared a lot of stories and we suddenly click as friends.  I even told him a lot of things, some of which are personal... but then again, the story of my life is hardly personal.  But there are only a few which I consider personal to me and a few friends.  I miss my onshore life.  But the blessing in disguise is that I am able to save money and at the same time earn via my offshore allowances.  It is not that I am materialistic, but I need the money especially that I am building my house soon. Yesterday I woke up at 5 a.m and as early as 6.30 a.m we were already on our way to the outstation platform, and it was a productive day, the guys are really good in what they do.  I love them to bits.  No, seriously...  They are quick and efficient.  I wish this team stays under my wing and I would do my best to keep them here.  I...

Why is that sometimes that people add you in their  friendster or facebook or even, their  MSN , and then, they become anonymous with you?  Playing mind games...  being mysterious and never answering your question... Is it not the point of doing so is to make friends?  I suppose and this is my view of it, that when you added someone, you are genuine to make friends or cyber friends, but the main thing is authenticity of your intentions are clear, to make friends.  But I've been getting added in their MSN recently and when I wanted to know who they are, but instead they play this childish mind game.  And if you know me, I've grown out of these petty mind games, thanks to age and experience.  Thank god for there's block and delete . But I can't help but wonder about this.  Why would one do such a thing?  It is annoying, it has no value what-so-ever and it will embarrass yourself.  Imagine, if I finally found out who this anonymous 'secret' person is, then, I...

Today, when I wrote my blog at 2 a.m, my hang out with Yoy , didn't end there. We continue to chit chatting and at the same time, I was browsing for camera lenses because QQeStore has failed to order mine in time, to I demanded my deposit back and went to browse online instead.  Most of the lenses are from the United States, and I wonder my package would ever reach here. We hung out at DeFountain until 6 a.m, we were the only ones left there, laughing out loud like nobody's business.  It was fun.  We ordered chips and cookies, drinks after drinks.  It was fun, we talked about anything and everything.  Relationship issues and life issues, were amongst the topics.  It was great.  I didn't think that Yoy is able to talk heart to heart with anyone, but he surprised me with his intelligence.  He admits that some people do look down on him because he seems like a himbo (male bimbo) most of the time.  But I told him it is his projection that made people think like that.  He is...

One week of office leave has been taken... I did not do what I planned to do.  I was too busy relaxing myself.  Having a reflecting week.  In summary, my leave was spent mostly to sleep.  And tonight is my last night because tomorrow night I would be sleeping early and have to cut down on hanging out from at DeFountain Cafe.  And most probably I will be offshore on Thursday, but for that, I'd have to call up office to know if I am really going offshore again.  I don't mind going offshore, except for the fact that I am going to know new people again.  I suppose it is a good thing. Redz is coming back home tomorrow and I am his designated pick-up driver.  I have actually decided to go back offshore last Monday, but I am afraid that Redz might need my help and I can't help him if I am offshore.  So I finished my leave and wait for him to come back before making my move offshore.  The good thing is and most people might think it is petty, that I manage to complete my laundry...

Last night, when I was hanging out with Yoy, I stepped outside to the outside corner of the cafe to have a smoke, yes, I know it is against the law, but would you like to go home and then come back to smoke?  That's plain silly.  So anyway, someone joined me to smoke, and we talked and talked about the new smoking law and how much it sucks!  He then asked me a deep question, which is, "Between the heart and the soul, which do you think is most important?"  It took me by surprise.  And I thought about it, I think the heart is much more important than the soul.  Why?  Because the heart comes first than the soul.  And with the existence of the soul, it complements the heart.  You can break a heart but not someone's soul and spirit, but actually you can break the soul is much harder to break.  But that contradicts to what I have been saying.  What I meant was, the heart persevere much better than the heart.  The heart has flexibility, it forms an interest and that is whe...

As mention in my post before this, I am going to put the pictures that Corey and I took yesterday on Monday...  I did terribly, because it seems that almost all of the pictures I took are a little tilted, you will notice this, I suppose my right leg is getting shorter - ha ha ha...  but anyway, here's my mediocre pictures... I call this picture, the bleeding Hua Ho symbol.    I name this piece - "That's how the cookie crumbles" Fisherman's Safe Return Home bound Happy Returns - He gave a thumbs up!  Happy Fisherman indeed. I call this picture - Nooks and Crannies or Caved in Lover's Paradise My Tiny Cove Living in a Hard Place Nature's Smile - These rocks protrude out from the ground thus could not be moved...  Weird, huh? My final decent picture, Razzy with Corey in the background tinkering with his new lens... So that's about it, comments appreciated, sorry there were no portraiture due to the fact our model is overseas.  We miss you, Redz, wish you ...

Despite waking up late, I've done well today. And it is not even 6 p.m. yet!  - Ha ha...  I woke up early, but only for a while, to load in my laundry into the machine, and every now again between 10 a.m. to 2 p.m, I received a few phone calls and text messages.  I can't even recall who called even.  And now, all of my laundry is complete, I have no outstanding dirty clothes.  I feel so proud of myself.  Then, Redz text message me via his friend's phone, telling me that his phone was barred, I suppose, when he was calling the bank and myself when he lost his credit card and ensuring the money was sent and received was the main culprit for his phone getting barred.   So I thought to myself, just in case, that he needs to communicate to anybody, I paid for his phone bills, he didn't ask me to, but I just want him to have a great holiday as much as possible.  Besides, I haven't paid my bills since I subscribed to DST Prima last end of April.  So before it breaks my b...

All of a sudden, I feel jealous.  But due to personal nature of my feelings, I can't let it out here.   Here I am with Yoy , at quarter past 3 a.m. with Euro Football match filling the ambient sounds of DeFountain Cafe feeling jealous.  Something feels just ain't right.   I suppose I am over reacting. But anyhow, I haven't updated you guys on the what's going on in my life. Actually, since the absence of my close friends for the last few days, I made some new friends, I suppose I'm expanding my circle of friends or network.  Because when it comes to friends, I think I've put them all in one basket.  I've invested my social life revolving around just a few friends.  Not that I sense tension between us all, in fact it is all good.  But nothing last forever right?   BFF?  I don't think so.  Why?  People change, status change, situation change.  So there's never a guarantee to things that exist in your life.  Hmm, why do I sound pessimistic tonight?   ...

I've resized the pictures when I was offshore but never made time to upload them, so here there are... Enjoy! Under the Shade Simpur Leaf and Fruit - The National Flower Flourish Forest Floor Framing Redz - Looking out Sweet Honey A Maze - ing Lost in the Maze floor Tiny Flower in the bushes This is where I drew the line We ended up the outing for a sunset at Jerudong Beach. That was the last picture, before my camera died on me.  I forgot to recharge the batteries.  So that's it!  I hope you like what you have seen.  Click on it for a larger view.  None of the pictures have been modified except to resize and them and inserting a copyright on it.  Please ask for permission before using them.  I can pass the original picture FOC. Until then.  Adios!

The plans that I planned out for the day, surprise, surprise, did not materialise.  I woke up at 1 p.m after watching TV until 4a.m.  I think I am at that point that my sleeping pattern has gone haywire.   So I need to calibrate my sleeping mechanism, or my sleeping bio clock.  So should be sleeping once I am back to bed tonight.  I'm at Taurean 'The Arch' at the moment, after a satay dinner at Batu Bersurat with my friend, Yoy.  Yoy and I are in the same boat that we're so dependent with our friends that now they are gone, we're hopeless.   The previous paragraphs were written about three days ago, me and Yoy, were a little clueless of what to do.   But on Saturday, despite waking up late, I was exhausted by the end of the day, Jane and I went out for window shopping for furnitures again.  Also we went shopping to The Mall for some clothes, I got myself a bag that looks military-ish, a ring and few funky lockets.  I am asking Redz to buy me some string necklaces to...

I'm by myself and slept throughout the day.  I am so attached with my friends that now I don't know what to do without them.  But I appreciate this.  I'm looking at the bright side of things.  It's all good actually.  I am taking this time to be happy by myself. I'm a little worried for my friend Redz, the worst thing that could happen to your holiday had happened to him.  He lost his wallet.  I never would want to ever happen that to me.  It will turn your vacation into a real nightmare.  So I sent him some money for him to enjoy, and things are going well for him.  It's all good.  He deserve a great holiday, a great vacation.  And I would do anything to ensure that. As for my daily itinerary, I've slept and took care of the cats, watched TV hung out with a few friends and that's about it.  Nothing to write much about.  Tomorrow the itinerary will look much more busy, as I need to pay my insurance for my house, and perhaps bring my dad out for a while. ...

Hey, hey, I'm back onshore! The journey back was torture.  I woke up at exactly 6.15 a.m which is the standby time, so I was  rushing like mad, I woke up, brushed my teeth, washed my face and started packing like crazy.  Then, when I went to check things in, oh my standby time is actually 6.45 a.m.  So I kept my bags ready for check in and had coffee and ciggy first.   Not long, there was announcement for a video safety briefing which is mandatory each time each passenger boards a chopper.  That means, in less than 30 minutes, we will be able to board the chopper.   Then the sound we all have been waiting for, first we need to wait for the passengers onboard to disembark and then it will be our turn to board.  The passengers have left the chopper, passed by us, and we were waiting for the green light for us to board.  Five minutes have passed.  No, still nothing.  Then from our we notice the sound of the helicopter motor, it was starting to whine down, starting to slow down...  Oh ...

There's something weird when you work and live in the same place. Well, it's not wrong as per say, but there's nothing much to update to you guys about.  It is such that work and play are sort of the same.  But anyway, things are going well, and I'm beginning to like working offshore.  I suppose I need to get out of my desk.  I was just wondering if I could ask for a transfer from my boss.  I think it is time for me to get out of my desk and spend more time on the field, but that is contradictory with my life at the moment, because I'm going to need to spend more time onshore, with my new house and all.  The best of all I get extra allowances for being offshore and for the past few days, I have not spent a cent! I have managed to do all the photoshopping that I have done with the pictures I took at Shahbandar Forest Reserve the other day.  I will post the pictures soon.  It's quite good, but not fantastic...  I can't wait for another outing.  I'm hoping ...

Before I start ranting with my itinerary of my life.  I just realise about an hour ago, I haven't made a big announcement about something really important in my life. My youngest sister gave birth to a healthy baby girl on the afternoon of Thursday, 12th June.  I was happy to hear that news.  I'm not as excited as this is my 15th grand daughter to my parents.  I have many nieces and nephews.  My eldest brother has six kids, my second brother have four, my little sister after me has one and my youngest now have four.  So 15 altogether.  Yes, all my siblings are married except for me.  I don't know, I'm not ready for marriage yet.  I always thought of myself, free spirited.  But anyway, I'm happy that my family is expanding.  I also met my mum, there were some awkwardness.  But my sister was happy to see me.  I think she didn't think that I would visit her.  She thanked me on my out.  When I was about to leave I 'salam' (shook hands with both hands and kis...

I am offshore right now.  And I absolutely tired and sleepy.  I have been awake since 3.45 a.m.  And I had a quick nap at the admin office in a sitting position (more like slouching) for 45 minutes until I can't feel my buttocks.  They have gone numb! I finally got a connection here using my personal laptop.  I need my work laptop to get things moving as regards to work.  But oh well, I'd have to live with this for a while.  A lot and I mean, a lot of things have happened.  My migraine is playing with me at the moment, it goes and it *pow* it comes again.  One of colleague was always asking why do I always press my right eye in?  It doesn't help at all but it eases the pain, somehow. So I have been spinning around to sort out a few things.  Some of the contractors had decided to go on strike, they wanted to go home, because they didn't like sharing with other than their own 'kind' i.e. same contractor .  And some even chose to sleep in front of the toilet door...

A few post ago I wrote that I might be staying offshore sometime this month... Well, tomorrow I will. Sigh! Thus, the frequency of updating my blog would be a little less from now until Tuesday. Will update if I can find access to the internet This morning, as I was about to shower, I can feel a mild migraine, I contemplated on eating the migraleve and went back to bed. But I know it will make me drowsy so I took ibuprofen instead and laid back down, I didn't go to sleep, well it was more of a nap. About an hour later, I woke up because I don't want my colleagues and bosses to think that I am slacking off. The migraine was there still, and was very mild, so I just took my sweetest time to get ready. When I arrived the office, I was told that I am going offshore and be staying there for a week. I told my boss that I am going for office leave on Wednesday. So I will be offshore until Tuesday. The office leave is to cater two things, one to take care of my housemates' c...

After reading Brunei Life style's blog , about the aftermath and side effect of the newly revised Tobacco Act.  I'd like to have my say about it too.   First and foremost, on a personal note, I'm thinking and on a pursuit to cut down smoking and hopefully quitting in the future, purely because I am determined to run two half marathons by the end of this year.  And not because of the harsh Tobacco Act. Having clear about that and setting that aside, there has been some joys celebrated amongst non-smokers, so let me rant a little to you the disappointment among the smokers. I am a decent citizen, a typical law abiding citizen, a responsible member of the community, I am a pro-Bruneian National just as the other man.  Not more, not less.  But to enjoy something that, yes, is harmful to ourselves and others, when done irresponsibly, makes us criminals, is beyond my comprehension.  With this in mind, I speak for myself, not letting me smoke in public (under the blue sky by our s...

Had a slight migraine on my drive, I suppose I was a little stressed out, because it took me almost 1 hour 45 mins to reach the office. And when I arrived there were no car parking space at all... So I took some migraleave, I'm struggling to stay awake. Help. Till then. Adios.. ... written during lunch... I am so sleepy. A few minutes ago, I went to the back of the office to smoke, I laid my head down and I actually fell asleep with my ciggy still lit up between my fingers. This migraleave sh!t works on me. This is my attempt to wake up, by blogging. The office is almost empty, they're all out for lunch, I'm hungry, but I'm sleepy. I just finished a mug of coffee and it doesn't work. Seriously, I'm typing with my eyes closed. Okay, I can't do it, I'm going to pull another chair and sleep. Nite-nite. Adios

Had plenty of meetings on offered in the morning.  Something has got to give. I arrived office early today and I'm glad that I did, actually this punctuality has always been my problem, and in the next few weeks I will be training myself to wake up early, thus being ultimately punctual at work.  More of that to be discussed later.  So anyway, there were three meetings lined up this morning, and I attended one at HQ because there were no representatives from our department whilst one meeting was full of our representatives.  It was also my chance to pass Corey's medical certificate to his secretary, I have been keeping it for almost a week and I felt bad not passing it to her.  I didn't have the opportunity to stop by HQ and this would be my only chance.  Besides, Jane msn -ed me via the work network and persuade me to have lunch.  So since my meeting finishes at 11.30 am, so I might as well wait for half hour for lunch.   The meeting went well, it was about the logistics...

Today is full of pressures.  Health pressures, work pressures and life pressures.   Firstly, today is our half year HLP (Healthy Lifestyle Programme) review.  This is to see our health performance ever since the programme started in January.  When I had my first review this year, there were three main factors to improve, increase exercise i.e. lose body weight, quit smoking and lower my blood pressure.  When they took my blood pressure in January, I was coincidentally just recovered from fever and my blood pressure was a little on the high note.  So I was a little worried about that, my blood pressure when I met the doctor recently also recorded a little high.  So I was worried about that.  The result of today's review was, my body weight, increased by 0.5 kgs, body fat percentage increased by 3% but ironically, a reduction in my abdominal waist size by 3 cm.  My blood pressure also dropped to a normal level.  I was ever so happy.  My pulse rate was a little low, on 66 bpm.  Then i...

I forgot to mention about what I did after work yesterday. Despite feeling under the weather, I made an appointment with my manicurist, I am desperate for a manicure because tomorrow I will be playing a netball tourney. And my nails are way too long.  So I did my manicure and pedicure as usual at my usual salon. Then, here is the thing, there's something I haven't told you about myself, I have a hairy chest and back. When I was a little boy watching Magnum P.I.  starring Tom Selleck , I used to wished that when I grow up, I wanted a sexy hairy chest.  I grew up, and it grew, and oh no, not sexy I'm afraid.  My mum used to call me a gorilla!  So when I started working and earned my own money, every now and again, I go for waxing.  Yes, I'm vain.  But if you had them, you'd understand.  It is not that I don't like my hairy chest but sometimes I do yearn for a clean smooth chest.  But most of the time, I wax my back and leave my chest alone.  But there are some ...

I woke up to see the bright sunny rainy Saturday, which is a rare occasion. Saturday is my weekend, and by default I always wake up at noon in time for lunch. Yup, lazy I am. So what makes today a difference? I woke up early because I hung out with Redz till late and I was too tired to make the journey home, so I slept over. And since he's working today, I had to wake up too. To a very very wet weather system... To think of it, I've could have continued sleeping, considering the cold and wet weather, it would be the best thing to do, cuddling up in your duvet, all nice and warm... Right? But you all have to go to work, don't you? - LOL okay, sorry to tease you guys. So why didn't I continue sleeping, because Razzy is due for her first ever service, Reen is due for car wash, which is pointless at this time, I've got to make payment for my new lens for my camera at QQeStore , perhaps I'd upgrade my long overdue laptop, which has been already paid for s...